Please explain this to me … A man’s point of view?

I dated this wonderful guy for three years. And then we broke up …Reasons was I didn’t share my past. With him was I was quite sluttish and I didn’t want him to know this … And he is quite a decent eke. Also, he wanted some very risky kinky stuff … which I was scared to do. 

 So, after breaking up for about five months and finally leaving him alone, I got a hint that I should not give up even though he was seeing someone else. I should just do everything that was needed.  Since I still love him to bits, I tried again. And, surprisingly, this did break the silent treatment. 

  So I confessed everything I did, which made him say that he couldn’t trust me anymore and that I strung him along with my lies. He egged me on to do this. I then fulfilled the fantasy to be with a prossie …He then told me we should move on. Explain what the hell is going through his mind?- Nikky