Is it my past hunting me, or…?
We shared a flat back then in school. During that time, I guess you could say I partied hard and had a thing for rich men. I have always been a bit obsessed with money and there was a time I wanted to make sure I would always have it, even if I had to sleep with it or one day marry it (or him).
During that time, I tried lots of different things to bag and keep rich men. Some I would refuse to have sex with or even kiss for ages to try and build anticipation. Others I would shower with so much sexual attention they couldn’t brush their teeth without my hand down their pants, if you know what I mean.
I had shared the good, the bad and the ugly with my friends and we would lol until we were sick. Thankfully, none of the relationships worked out and I had to earn my own money, which I did.
Now, I have met a brilliant guy who I have been with for over a year, but I go to great lengths to keep him apart from my friends. They have met him a couple of times, but all they seem to want to do is spill ‘hilarious’ stories about my past, which makes me look really bad and always trigger a question and answer (Q&A) with my boyfriend.
I have tried to shut them down or tell them not to say anything, but they think we have always laughed about it and it is a hilarious part of who I am. They think if I am insecure about my boyfriend hearing about my past, that he probably isn’t the right guy for me. I just want them to stop.
I have moved on and grown up and feel like they are haunting me with my past. I want to keep them in my life, but need them to keep their mouths shut. Isn’t it fair to expect that from good friends?